Wednesday, September 1, 2021

God's Not Done With You Yet

If the Lord was trying to get your attention, what would it take? Would you be willing to just sit quietly with Him and listen? Would you allow Him time to reveal things to you, even things that might be hard? Or would you skip to the next chapter?

It has been seven months since T walked away. These past seven months have been hard, full of a lot of depression and crying. However, these days have also been full of clinging to the Lord in prayer. As I have found myself sitting quietly with the Lord, He has been helping to learn some things about myself.

Things that I am learning about myself, since the separation. 

1. I am a people pleaser   

It has been revealed to me, by the Lord, that I am a people pleaser . An example that comes to mind has to be where T suggested I get a hysterectomy. If you remember from a previous post, I had an excruciatingly painful experience with a pap test . I passed out and nobody would listen to me. I was then sent to the er.

Well, the suggestion was made that I get a hysterectomy. I cried. It hurt me so much that he would even suggest something like this. However, after a couple of minutes, I found myself telling him that I would talk to my gynecologist.

We are not even living together any more and I am still trying to do things in order to make him happy.

I have got to get to the point that my first and foremost thought is pleasing the Lord. I am a work in progress in this area.

2. Crocheting is my hidden talent   

Another thing that I am slowly starting to learn is that my talent , the thing that the Lord has entrusted me with, is crocheting.

Sadly, after T left me, I hit a deep depression and got rid of all my crochet items. So, I am having to start all over again.

This has taken me a while to grasp. You know the thought of using my crochet as my talent for serving the Lord.

As I look back over the years that I made things, I know that it always brought me so much joy to make something for someone else. However, I had to deal with negativity.

"Your work isn't good enough"

"Nobody will like what you are making"

"Why do you have to make these things for other people?" <--- that one was an actual question that I was asked.

You have a hidden dream, dig it up 

Over these past several months, I have asked the Lord to reveal to me what my talent might be. Is there actually a dream that I have that is buried and He wants me to dig it up?

Yes. I kept having thoughts and longings about crocheting again. So I did a search and found some ergonomic crochet hooks and bought a set that I felt I could justify. With some time, I might upgrade, but for now, these will do. And I bought some yarn.

The yarn is so pretty and I am so excited to be crocheting again!

Every morning, I seek the Lord in prayer over my project and that He will ease the pains that I have. It is all in His hands.

I honestly have no idea where the Lord is taking me with my crocheting. All I know is that for right now, here in this moment, I am enjoying the process.

Don't jump to the next chapter 

3. I am learning to wait   

Another thing that I am slowly starting to learn is how to wait . I often catch myself sitting with the Lord asking, "What do you want for me after this hard season?" or "How can I prepare now for the next chapter of my life?" Can you relate?

He, however, is teaching me that I need to just sit with Him in the moment. Wait and allow Him to do His work in and through me, during this hard season.

Actually, if I think about it, if I were reading a book, I wouldn't skip one chapter and go on to the next one. And I definitely wouldn't jump all the way to the end of the book. God is at work in my life, I need to be still with Him and allow Him to finish working on me, in this current chapter of my life.

2 Thessalonians 1:11 NIV 

With this in mind, we constantly pray for you, that our God may make you worthy of his calling, and that by his power he may bring to fruition your every desire for goodness and your every deed prompted by faith.


Father in heaven, I  pray that You will make me worthy of Your calling, and that by Your power You may bring to fruition my every desire for goodness and my every deed prompted by faith (2 Thessalonians 1:11). In Jesus' name, Amen.

Your turn:

Is the Lord currently trying to reveal things to you? Are you listening?
Are you someone that wants to jump ahead of your current situation into the next chapter? Would you skip over one chapter, in a book, to the next?

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