Tuesday, November 17, 2020

2020 Recap

Where is your focus? What has your focus been throughout this year? Where is your focus as you head into the coming year?







If I am completely honest, I have to admit that my focus tends to gravitate towards the negative. No matter how hard I try to focus on the positive things if one negative comment is said, that is where my focus will end up.



The year 2020 has had its challenges. 




Can I get an Amen?



T has had the ability to work from home. I am so thankful that his job allows him to do this. However, I have to admit that I have ended up losing a lot of my space. I need quiet, throughout my day, in order to feel refreshed and closer to God. I no longer have that. I have worked hard to adjust to this new normal, but slowly seem to be losing more and more of myself.



I am slowly losing interest in blogging. I do not have quiet areas to escape to in order to think and write, so I feel like I do not have the energy or desire to blog anymore. And I will not even start on pinterest and fb. 



In September, Taylor moved out. He was not even going to let us know anything. I stopped him and said something to him and he said that he had an apartment and he was moving out. No job, no income, nothing. When T and I questioned him, he said that it was none of our business. I told him that I would be praying hard for him. He told me that he was sorry for me. That just made me more determined about my praying over him.



Then five weeks, to the day, after he moved out.... he sent his dad a text. In this text, he mentions wanting to end his life. 



This



Took



My



Breath



Away 



After, T had read the message through to himself and then prepared me a bit, he read it to me. And then we called him and talked to him for 2 hours.








Once the initial shock of his announcement had settled in, I was able to step back and thank God.



Thank God for answering prayers. 




Thank God for being with my baby. Thank God for surrounding him with his presence. Thank God for keeping him safe. Thank God for having Taylor reach out to us even when it must have been hard for him to do. Thank God for answering my prayers.



After we had talked with him for a while, I told him that I wanted him to know that I had been praying hard for him just as I promised that I would. He started crying and he thanked me. I then told him that I have had him covered in prayers.



Time is continuing to move forward. Taylor has moved back home and seems to be doing well. He spends time with us. He joins in conversations. He comes out to join us for meals. Oh.... he also has gotten a job with Amazon.



My focus? Depression. I have been struggling hard with depression. My focus just tends to gravitate towards the negative.



I will say this.... you will never be able to convince me that God doesn't answer prayers. 



So in looking forward to the next year, my word of focus is going to be "Pray". I have already found a lot of books on prayer and several on praying over your children, adult children, grandchildren, etc.



I am still memorizing long passages of scripture. Currently, I am working through Matthew 6 <-- a huge chunk of which is on prayer :).




As of right now, I do not know if I will continue with my blog. I keep going back and forth as to what I should do. So for now, I will pray and see where the Lord leads me.









Ps. I am including a couple of printables for you. One is an image using the word Focus and the other is using the word Pray.



















2 comments:

  1. Just wanted to say that I'm thankful to God for your blog!

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    1. Thank you so much for visiting and for your sweet comment. Blessings to you.

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