Thursday, January 2, 2020

Patiently Pursues

Have you ever felt that the Lord was leading you to do something? However, this task, that you feel lead to do, is not something that you want to do. Do you follow where the Lord leads you? Or do you fight against Him, kicking and screaming?

I remember, it was 2005.

I had been having dreams of going back to work. First off, I will say that I do not handle change well, at all. So these dreams were not pleasant for me.

My youngest was in the 1st grade. I had already started volunteering at the elementary library a couple of days a week. And I loved it! So, why did I need to have an actual job?

The more that I fought against these feelings and dreams, the more of them I had. It was apparent that the Lord wanted me to go back to work.

So, I needed to stop fighting against Him and let His will be done.

I had not worked for over 10 years. The last two places that I worked had closed down. Did not matter. God sent me where He wanted me. I do believe it was the second place that I went, btw.

I worked in child care, taking care of the newborns. It was a struggle for me, most days, but I still got up and went, every day. I worked there for 3 years.

In those three years, the Lord helped us to fix up our place and sell it and allowed us to move into a house. Once we had settled into our house, T got a promotion at work and I was able to quit my job and stay home, again.

Yes, I did fight against having to go back to work. However, I am so glad that I finally gave up on that fight and let the Lord lead me.

Now, let's read Genesis 32:22-32 about Jacob wrestling with God.

Genesis 32:22-32 NIV 

That night Jacob got up and took his two wives, his two female servants and his eleven sons and crossed the ford of the Jabbok. After he had sent them across the stream, he sent over all his possessions. So Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak. When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man. Then the man said, “Let me go, for it is daybreak.” But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.” The man asked him, “What is your name?” “Jacob,” he answered. Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, because you have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.” Jacob said, “Please tell me your name.” But he replied, “Why do you ask my name?” Then he blessed him there. So Jacob called the place Peniel, saying, “It is because I saw God face to face, and yet my life was spared.” The sun rose above him as he passed Peniel, and he was limping because of his hip. Therefore to this day the Israelites do not eat the tendon attached to the socket of the hip, because the socket of Jacob’s hip was touched near the tendon.

Even Jacob wrestled with God.

Stop for a moment and let that thought sink in.

Jacob wrestled with God. So when you feel overwhelmed by something that you feel the Lord is leading you to do, remember that you are in good company.

Not only did Jacob wrestle with God, but he survived AND he received a blessing.

Yes, yes, yes, I know, he also ended up with a wrenched hip which to me just means that it is better not to fight against what God is calling you to do.


Dear Father, 

Thank you for Jacob. Thank you for wrestling with him to help him clearly see what you needed him to see. Father, thank you for allowing me times where I can kick and scream against you. Thank you, also, for lovingly and patiently pursuing me. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Reflecting Over 2019

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Humble Beginnings

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Have you ever felt that the Lord was leading you to do something?
However, this task, you felt lead to do, is not something that you want to do.
Do you follow where the Lord leads?
Or do you fight against Him, kicking and screaming?
How can I pray for you today?
If you will allow it, I will be happy to help carry your load.

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