Friday, March 15, 2019

A Letter To Myself Age 19

Have you ever struggled with feeling disowned? Take comfort in knowing that nothing will ever be able to separate you from the love of the Father.











Dearest 19 Year Old,





Congratulations! You have graduated from high school. You are now working at T.J.Maxx where you meet your future husband.




You now have a driver's license and attend a community college. Oh, how I wish you could study the things that interest you. However, in order to keep the peace, you do what your dad wants.



Over The Years 




Over the years, you have seen a lot. Your mom has had several nervous breakdowns. You have even seen her with cuts on her wrists :(.




There is one time in particular that stands out, one that I wish I could block you from having to witness.




This event took place around the time that you were 11. Your sister has been born by now and your bedroom is in the basement.




Your mom and dad are having a conversation. He is telling her what to do and she doesn't like it. So, she stands up to him. She tells him that she is not his daughter and doesn't appreciate being treated like one. Oh boy, did he get mad at her. He gets so mad that he pushes her down the basement steps.




You panic. You want to be able to do.... something, but you freeze.




After that, she is back in the mental hospital again.




You have seen some hard things over the years. However, these hard things help to shape you into the person that you become. They also help you to cling more and more to the Lord for strength.











Here you are at 19. I wish that this point forward would go smoothly for you, but I cannot tell you that.



Your "Earthly" Dad Disowns You




You have a disagreement with your dad and you decide to stand up for yourself. He beats you and slams you against the wall, holding you by your neck. Luckily, that is the last time he ever lays a hand on you.




Several months later, your future husband sneaks you out of the house, in the middle of the night. Yes, I know, it isn't good to live with someone or to have a sexual relationship out of wedlock. You will be judged. Your dad will disown you, call you all types of things, in attempt to make himself feel better.




I want to tell you that things going forward are easy, but since I cannot, I will remind you that the Father loves you very much. Your dad may not be an easy man. He may disown you, but nothing will ever be able to separate you from the love of the Father.




Romans 8:37-39 NIV 




No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.











Let's Pray: 



Dear Father,  



Thank You for always being with me. I know that no matter how dark things may seem, You are always there. Father, I take comfort in knowing that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate me from the love that You have for me through Christ Jesus my Lord. In Jesus' name, Amen.












A Letter To Myself Age 10


A Letter To Myself As A Baby


My Testimony











Have you ever struggled with feeling disowned?
Do you feel like you do not matter?
How can I pray for you today?
If you will allow it, I will be happy to help carry your load.




























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