Tuesday, July 13, 2021

If God is Calling You To It

Life just took a turn.



Sometimes the turns that we face in life, are good turns. However, with this turn, you find yourself struggling and confused. The Lord has good things in store for you. All you have to do is hold on tightly to His hand as He guides your path.








You are standing there, not sure which way to go. Will you try something and fall flat on your face? Will you go in one direction, but the Lord wanted you to go another? What will happen if you mess up? However, if you take a step, what will happen if you do not mess up?


Have you ever felt that God was leading you to do something? Did you fight against His leading? Did you hide and hope that it went away?



Take a wobbly step  




I think back to when my boys were little. I'm talking about before they started to walk. Oh, each one of them learned to hold on to the furniture as they walked around the room. However, over time, they also learned to let go and to take that first uncertain, wobbly step.



I can still picture the look on each of their faces as my husband and I cheered. It was a big deal, after all and one that needed celebrating.



I have to be honest here and admit that when it comes to taking uncertain steps, I hesitate. I find myself fighting and wanting to hide.



Through dreams and hesitations  




Back in 2005, I started having dreams. Yes, I believe in dreams. In these dreams, I was working in a child care center taking care of babies.



Taking care of babies is what I used to do, but I had not worked in ten years. So, to start having these dreams made me panic.



Now, let me preface all of this by saying that at this time, I was volunteering at the elementary school library a couple of days a week. It took a lot for me to decide to pursue this and when I started to get a little bit comfortable with things, I started dreaming about going back to work.



I didn't do anything about the dreams, at first. You know, the old "ignore it and it will go away". But the dreams didn't stop. So, I mentioned to T that I was feeling led to go back to work. And after some praying, I started actually looking into a few local child care centers.



I do believe that I was able to get a job at the third center that I went to.



Now, I am facing other things in my life. Steps that I need to take. However, these steps are not because I have had a dream.








Do I feel overwhelmed? Oh yes, I do. But I am going to do my best to keep pushing through.
I will keep clinging on to the Lord and His strength.




See, even the Israelites hesitated  




Let us look at the Israelites. Joshua was leading them into the promised land. We see in Joshua 18:1-10 that there were 7 tribes that were hesitant about taking the steps necessary to claim their land. So Joshua sets forth the command to send 3 men from each tribe to survey the land. Once they did this, they were to write a description of the area. And then.... Joshua would cast lots, before the Lord, for each section of land.




Joshua 18:1-10 NIV  




The whole assembly of the Israelites gathered at Shiloh and set up the tent of meeting there. The country was brought under their control, but there were still seven Israelite tribes who had not yet received their inheritance. So Joshua said to the Israelites: “How long will you wait before you begin to take possession of the land that the Lord, the God of your ancestors, has given you? Appoint three men from each tribe. I will send them out to make a survey of the land and to write a description of it, according to the inheritance of each. Then they will return to me. You are to divide the land into seven parts. Judah is to remain in its territory on the south and the tribes of Joseph in their territory on the north. After you have written descriptions of the seven parts of the land, bring them here to me and I will cast lots for you in the presence of the Lord our God. The Levites, however, do not get a portion among you, because the priestly service of the Lord is their inheritance. And Gad, Reuben and the half-tribe of Manasseh have already received their inheritance on the east side of the Jordan. Moses the servant of the Lord gave it to them.” As the men started on their way to map out the land, Joshua instructed them, “Go and make a survey of the land and write a description of it. Then return to me, and I will cast lots for you here at Shiloh in the presence of the Lord.” So the men left and went through the land. They wrote its description on a scroll, town by town, in seven parts, and returned to Joshua in the camp at Shiloh. Joshua then cast lots for them in Shiloh in the presence of the Lord, and there he distributed the land to the Israelites according to their tribal divisions.




Whatever you feel the Lord is leading you to do, take the step. Try to take just one step. One step isn't too overwhelming. When you manage that tiny step, try another one. If the Lord is calling you to do this, He is with you every step of the way.




Your turn:  




What steps are you feeling that the Lord is leading you to take?
Do you fight against His leading?
Do you hide and hope that it will all go away?




2 Corinthians 9:8 NIV  




And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.




Prayer:  




Father in heaven, Your love is better than life, my lips will always glorify You. I will praise You as long as I live, and in Your name, I lift up my hands (Psalm 63:3-4). I confess that when I feel You leading me a certain way, I often hesitate, just as the 7 Israelite tribes did. I worry that I am going to fail. Please forgive me of this and give me the strength and courage I need to take the step necessary to follow You. I thank You, Father, because I know that You have the power to bless me abundantly. You have the power to make sure that I have everything that I need, at all times, in order that I might abound in every good work (2 Corinthians 9:8). In Jesus' name, Amen.





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Ps. I am attaching a Free Printable for you. It is a 30 Day Bible Reading/Writing Plan called God Will Direct My Steps. It is my prayer that it brings you comfort. 









Blessings,




Leigha  

Thursday, July 1, 2021

Surrender Your Path

Where are you on your path? Have you recently been hurt? Do you feel rejected? Do you feel like the path you are on is hard and scary?







This current path that I am trying to walk, started on January 25th of this year.




Even though I didn't choose this path





I woke up, thinking that it was just like any other day. I went about my normal routine of getting the dogs fed and taken care of, having my breakfast and devotional time with the Lord. Then T announced that he was taking a sick day so he could spend time with me.




We had been talking for some time about replacing the ceiling fan in the living room. T picked out one that is huge. I'm talking like 70 inches. I am someone that is a visual person, which means I need to see something in order to fully understand it. I thought a fan that big would be too big for our space, so we decided to go to Home Depot to look at their ceiling fans.




It was just a normal day. Well, he did ask me if I thought I would ever drive again. I told him that I didn't think so.




I have always (for as far back as I can remember) had anxiety about driving. I have never enjoyed doing it.




He then starts asking me if he gets rid of the Palisade (which was our current vehicle) and looked for something that I would feel more comfortable with, would I be willing to drive? I told him that I wasn't sure.



Even when nothing makes sense





I couldn't understand these questions or why he was wanting to get rid of the Palisade. I mean, we had only had it a short time. And as long as he was there and still willing to drive, it didn't matter to me what car we had.




Everything else went as normal, that day. Taking care of the dogs as needed, cooking and eating (although I cannot remember what I ate that day). We spent time together watching tv and then...




T disappeared into the bedroom. I felt that was odd and I felt hurt. He took off to spend time with me and then disappears without saying a word to me.




I finally shut everything down and started getting ready for bed. As I walked into our bedroom, he said, "we need to talk." My heart sank. I just knew that it was bad news.




Then he proceeds to tell me that he wants out. He feels like he needs to take a break.




I was hurt, angry, scared, numb. I mean, come on, we have done this before. I honestly did not know how to act or what to feel.




As I type this up, it has now been over 5 months since he walked out the door. Yes, I am still reeling from this. There are times that I feel like a piece of trash that has been wadded up and thrown away.



I see God's hand in my life




However, as I look back over my life, I can see how God has been there. Even through my roller coaster of a marriage. We went through a bad patch in 2000, but with God's help, love and guidance, we survived. Because of His grace, we had another 21 years together.








1. Look back over your life. Even in those bad moments that you went through, if you look hard enough, you can see the Lord's hand.

As I look back, I see a motorcycle accident . What a scary, painful time that was, however, the Lord was with us the whole time. I see T's fight with cancer. The Lord brought him through. I see my many, many health issues and scares, but the Lord is still here with me.


2. Spend time giving thanks to the Lord for all that He has done for you.


Thank You Jesus! For I am nothing without You.


3. Praise the Lord for all that He has done and all that He continues to do.


Praise You! You are wonderful, glorious, magnificent, nothing compares to You. Father, I praise You for always being with me, even when I walk the hard paths. I praise You for all that you continue to do. 




You know, since we have "been there and done that" before and the Lord brought us back, I know that anything is possible.



Luke 1:37 CEV 



Nothing is impossible for God!”




I do not know what the next step holds. I am still struggling to manage from one moment to the next. I am struggling to Follow His Path . But I know the Lord is with me.




Your turn: 




What is your path like?
Are you hurting?
Have you lost someone?
Are you struggling in your marriage?





No matter what path you are walking, remember that you are not alone. No matter how far down in your pit you may feel, you are not alone. The Lord is right there with you. He is sitting with you in the muck and the mire. He is reaching out His arms and waiting for you to come to Him with your every struggle. Will you turn to Him?




Prayer: 




Father in heaven, nothing is ever impossible for You (Luke 1:37). Here I am Lord, at the lowest point that I can reach. I am sitting in the muck and the mire of my pit of deep despair. I know that you are here with me, even in this dark place. You are reaching for me. Father, I am turning to You. I surrender. I surrender my struggles. I surrender my future. I surrender my life. I surrender my marriage. I surrender my all to You. I trust in You. Thank You for all that You do. In Jesus' name, Amen. 





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Blessings, 





Leigha 




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Friday, June 18, 2021

Follow His Path

Are you walking along a path that you did not choose? Who are you allowing to guide your steps?




Can I tell you a secret?



In my struggles, I either pull completely away from everyone (yes, even God) and everything. Or I try to fill my time with activity.



Because He is with me



I know that I need the Lord. I have been clinging on to Him through every step. I know that the only reason I am able to keep functioning is because He is with me.



So, I have been trying to fill my time with things that keep me busy. I have been working on a latch hook kit and I have a diamond painting kit. However, I have not stuck with those activities.



I am one that will put on Netflix or Hulu to escape from things. So now that I am struggling with sad times, I try to find something funny to watch. Just something that will make me laugh. More often than not, however, I watch shows that T and I used to watch together.



I am left wondering, though, how I am supposed to turn off all of the thoughts when they bombard me. When I am completely alone and need to focus on something, what am I called to do?



I think that is the real question, isn't it? What is my purpose now? What is it that I feel excited about?



I trust Him to guide my steps




I just feel like I am walking along a path that I did not and would not have chosen. This path hurts. I keep falling down. I keep disappointing everyone. This path is very scary, but I know it is the one that I am supposed to walk.







Even as I walk this hard, scary path, I know that there are lessons for me to learn. Each time that I fall down, there is a lesson. Yes, it hurts, but I will be a little more careful as I trust the Lord to guide my steps.



I am in the process of learning to surrender my will to the Lord's will. You know "let go and let God". 



1.  I am learning to let go of my thoughts and feelings and to focus more on Him. 
2. I am learning to let go of my steps to walk in His steps. 
3. I am learning to let go of my path and let Him be my Guide. 
4. I am learning to let go of my plans and to trust in His plans for my life. 
5. I am learning to let go of my will in order that His will might be done in my life.



Psalm 23:3-4 NLT 



He renews my strength. He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to his name. Even when I walk through the darkest valley, I will not be afraid, for you are close beside me. Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me.




Prayer: 



Father in heaven, You are my Fortress, my Rock, my Refuge (Psalm 18:2). Thank You for always being with me. Even when my path is hard and scary, I trust that You are there. Thank You for renewing my strength and guiding me along the right paths. Father, I will not fear, even though I walk through the darkest valley, because I know that You are close beside me. Thank You for the protection and the comfort that Your rod and Your staff bring to me (Psalm 23:3-4). In Jesus' name,  Amen.




Your turn: 



Are you walking along a path that you did not choose?
Who are you allowing to guide your steps?



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Blessings,










Leigha 

Thursday, June 3, 2021

In Prayer We Wait

What is on your heart? Is there something that you are praying for, right now? As you pray and wait, think about how you will respond even if He does not do the thing that you want Him to do.








I want to share an experience with you:




My oldest son, Phillip, was three years old when I started to long for another baby. I thought, "Phillip is potty trained, no longer uses bottles, eats food by himself... it is time for another child."


I would cry, pray, wait




So, we tried. We spent four and a half years trying. Every month, I ended up feeling like a complete failure and dealt with depression. I would cry, pray, wait and nothing, every month, every year.


For His timetable, not mine




Until finally, we were blessed with Taylor. Everything that I prayed for happened, just according to His timetable and not mine.


I struggle with depression, I pray and wait


Now as I look at my circumstances today, I feel like I struggle so much with depression. The slightest thing triggers a memory which in turn brings on the tears.




I spend a lot of time praying that the Lord will step in and make everything better in our marriage. I know that He has the power to heal and to restore, so I keep claiming those promises. And I keep waiting.


And then... 




Then as I read Daniel 3:17-18, the passage jumped out at me. For full reference, I suggest that you read all of Daniel 3.




These passages are about Shedrach, Meshach and Abednego. King Nebuchadnezzar had commanded that everyone bow down to worship the image of gold every time they heard music. Shedrach,Meshach and Abednego refused as they only serve one God. So King Nebuchadnezzar ordered them to be tossed in to the furnace. Again, I suggest that you read Daniel 3.







Daniel 3:17-18 NIV 



If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to deliver us from it, and he will deliver us from Your Majesty’s hand. But even if he does not, we want you to know, Your Majesty, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up.”




Do you see it? 




God is able to rescue us from our blazing furnace -- He is able. He has the power.




But even if He does not -- even if He does not rescue me from my blazing furnace. Even if He does not do for my marriage what I pray that He will do.




So my question has to be, "Leigha, even if He does not, will you still love Him, serve Him, need Him?"




Prayer: 




Father in heaven, You are my Rock, my Fortress, my Refuge (Psalm 18:2). I thank You, Father, for always being with me, even in the middle of my blazing furnace. Just as You rescued Shedrach, Meshach and Abednego, I trust that You have the power to rescue me from this furnace. However, even if You do not, I still love You. I still need You. I still trust in You. I will still serve You (Daniel3:17-18). I ask that Your will be done. In Jesus' name, Amen.




Your turn: 




What is on your heart?
Is there something that you are praying for, right now?
As you pray and wait, think about how you will respond even if He does not do the thing that you want Him to do.
Will you still love Him, serve Him, need Him?




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Blessings,






Leigha  

Thursday, May 20, 2021

Even On the Hard Days

What can you do when you know that a hard day is coming? How do you manage to survive this day?







Anniversary. Is it still considered an anniversary when you are separated?



That question has been plaguing me lately.




The Lord is with you




You see, as of May 20th, we will be married for 33 years. However, T is no longer living with me. And the last time I spoke to him, he said that it is not his plan to come back.



So, is it still an anniversary? Well, in my opinion, yes, it is. It is still the anniversary of the day that we said our vows before God. We may not celebrate, but it is still an anniversary.



Okay, so now, I am left with the question of how I will "best" get through this day. How do I manage to survive a day that I know is going to be hard for me?



I will thank the Lord for blessing me with another day.
I will thank Him for each breath that He allows me to take.
I will then pull myself up out of bed and attempt to make the bed.
I will get dressed, in something nice, in hopes of making myself feel pretty.
I will spend time with the Lord.
I will allow myself some comfort food.
I will even eat a gluten free brownie in a cup.
I will find a funny movie to watch that might help take my mind off of things.
When sadness hits, as I know that it will, I will allow myself to cry.



No matter what, I will continue to put one foot in front of the other. It might be tiny, baby steps that I am taking, but with the Lord's help, I will keep moving.




He holds your right hand 




What can you do when you know that a hard day is coming?



1. Splurge a little and buy yourself some flowers
2. Go shopping for something that makes you feel pretty
3. Treat yourself to a mani/pedi
4. Find a movie, that interests you, and watch it
5. Have a nice meal
6. Invite your friends over and have girl time








Remember that, no matter how hard the day might be, you are not alone. The Lord is there with you. He is holding you by your right hand.



Psalm 73:23-24 NIV 



Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand.  You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory.



Prayer: 



Father in heaven, thank You for always being with me. No matter how hard things might get, I know that You are there. Thank You, Father, for helping me to continue to move forward. Thank for holding me by my right hand and guiding me with Your counsel. Thank You for the promise that You will carry me into glory (Psalm 73:23-24). In Jesus' name, Amen.



Your turn: 




What can you do when you know that a hard day is coming?
How do you manage to survive this day?



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Free Printable:



I have put together a 30 Day Bible Reading/Writing Plan that is called God in the Hard Times.  I hope it brings you comfort. 










Blessings, 





Leigha

Friday, May 14, 2021

Nothing is Impossible With God

What are your struggles? How do you manage through them?








I do not know what you are facing in your life. However, one of my struggles, lately, has been dealing a lot with depression.



I will not be intimidated 




In order to try and cope, I pull myself out of bed, every morning. I remind myself that my dogs still need me. I even go as far as attempting to make my bed every day. That way, every time I walk into my room, I see that the bed is made and it makes me feel a little better.



I have even had a few days (though not too many) that I have put on makeup and earrings. It is just a little attempt to make myself feel better.



I always take time to spend with the Lord crying and praying. Just being in His Presence brings me comfort.



I am currently trying to discern His will for this chapter in my life. I have no idea what He is wanting me to do. I have to admit that I am afraid of making the wrong decision.



By my daunting circumstances 




What if I try something, that He never intended for me to do, and I fall flat on my face? However, what if I decide that waiting is the best option? So, I wait, but He intended for me to do something, then .... you see, I have let Him down.



For right now, I am going to wait and trust that He will give me clarity. In the meantime, as part of drawing closer to Him, I am writing out the book of Job. I really enjoy writing out scripture .








No matter what you might be struggling with:



1. Continue to get up out of bed every morning.
2. Make your bed.
3. Attempt to get dressed and put on some makeup.
4. Spend time every day with the Lord.
5. Try to discern His will for this chapter of your life.
6. If your chapter needs time to be refined, learn how to wait.



Luke 1:37 ESV  



For nothing will be impossible with God.”



Prayer:  



Father in heaven,  I am so thankful that nothing is impossible with You (Luke 1:37). My Jehovah Jireh and Immanuel. No matter what I am struggling with, I find comfort in knowing that You have the power to bring about anything. You have the power to heal broken relationships. You have the power to help me discern Your will for this chapter of my life. I will not be intimidated by my daunting circumstances because nothing is impossible with You. In Jesus' name, Amen.


Your turn:  


What are your struggles?
How do you manage through them?




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Blessings, 







Leigha   



Thursday, April 29, 2021

Always Hope + Free Printable

Are you feeling lost in your struggles? Is the chaos of life weighing on you? Do you struggle with feeling God's protection in your life?







I know, full well, that life can, at times feel like a roller coaster ride. You are strapped into the seat, speeding along these twists and turns. You struggle so hard to climb up the hill that is set before and then, you are off, racing to the bottom. It feels out of control.



Oh and that is if the ride of your day goes smoothly. That is not even counting the unknown factors that get tossed into your life that can make you feel like things have gotten off track.



God has got you covered. 



Was it a decision that was made somewhere along the way that caused a wrong turn?
 


There is always hope. 



No matter how chaotic things may feel. 








No matter how upside down things may seem. 



God has got you covered.

 


1 Corinthians 10:13 NIV 




No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.



He is keeping you safe.





Are you needing a reminder of God's Protection in your life? I have put together a 30 day Bible Reading/Writing Plan for you. That is one reminder for every day of a month of just how important you are to God and how He is keeping you safe. Even when life is out of control. 









Prayer:




Father in heaven, my Immanuel. I thank You so much that no matter what decisions are made that impact the course of my life, You are faithful. You provide a way for me to endure. Please help me to remember that You are in control. Help me to remember that You will keep me safe. In Jesus' name, Amen. (1 Corinthians 10:13)




Your turn: 




Are you feeling lost in your struggles?
Is the chaos of life weighing on you?
Do you struggle with feeling God's protection in your life?




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Brave Enough to Say No








Blessings,










Leigha  

If God is Calling You To It

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