Thursday, July 29, 2021

Strive Only to Please the Lord

Are you a people pleaser? Are you someone that cares what other people think about you? Or are you someone that seeks to please the Lord and strives to only care about what He thinks of you?

I confess, I am a people pleaser. 

It has recently been revealed to me, with the Lord's help, that I am a people pleaser. I work hard at something just to make someone else happy. I even go as far as to change what I am thinking and feeling in order to make someone else happy.

Then, after all my people pleasing work. After all of the time spent negating my thoughts and feelings. Something doesn't work out right. The other person still is not pleased with me or my efforts. Then, I am crushed.

On the other hand, there is the side of me that really cares what you think of me. I will even change my needs and my wants if it makes you like me a little bit more. 

I am even known to be someone that allows what others think or say make me second guess and/or doubt myself. I have seen this quality in myself for a while.

However, the Lord is revealing things to me.

Ok, I have brought all of this up for a reason. I recently went through something and now the Lord is revealing things to me.

I just had my annual gynecologist visit. This visit was for a pap test and it was excruciatingly painful. (Just one of the perks of being post menopausal ). Once everything was over, I sat up and my doctor told me that I could get dressed. I then asked her for a wet cloth because I didn't feel well at all.

She brought me the cloth and I laid back down. Once the dizziness eased, I sat up, but had to lay back down again. Then the dizziness eased, I sat up again and just waited. Once I felt like I could manage things, I walked over and attempted to get dressed.

I did not get far in my efforts when I realized that I was about to pass out. So I sat down on the bench and pressed myself against the wall. The next thing I knew someone was yelling at me from a distance. It took several minutes for me to really be able to focus. My gynecologist sent me to the er. My bloodwork came back normal and I was told that it might be psychological. The sad part of that, is after T chimed in with his agreement, I started to think, "well maybe it is psychological."

What is Secondary Adrenal Insufficiency?

So what caused me to pass out? Good question. I apparently could not explain things very well OR nobody would listen to me.

I have Secondary Adrenal Insufficiency . This means that I have a tumor on my pituitary gland. My pituitary gland (which usually produces all of these hormones) does not function right any more. My adrenal glands have shut down. My body no longer produces cortisol which is needed during stress producing situations.

The excruciating pain from my pap test caused a lot of stress to my body. It caused so much stress that a normal person would have managed ok because of cortisol, but my body doesn't produce cortisol anymore.

So what does my body do in stressful situations like this? It does the only thing that it can do. It shuts down. And that means, I pass out.

I am fine. It was so scary, yes. But I am fine.

Now that I am beyond this, I keep playing it all over and over in my mind. I sit in my prayer closet crying and praying over things and He is working on me.

It is through His help and guidance that I have been able to see how I am a people pleaser and how I care about what other people think of me.

3 Things The Lord is Showing Me  

1. He is showing me that I do not have to change my thoughts and feelings. Why? Because I matter ( Psalm 139:13-16). 

2. He is showing me that I do not have to negate what I want or what I need. Why? Because I am important (Ephesians 1:5).  

3. He is showing me that I no longer need to question myself or second guess myself. Why? Because He is with me (Matthew 28:20).

The Lord is working on me. I am learning to turn to Him with all of my thoughts, feelings, wants and needs. When I start to question myself or doubt myself in any way, I am learning to seek His guidance. I only need to please One person. I only need to care about what One person thinks about me. His name is Jesus.

Romans 12:2 NIV 

Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

4 Tips About Pleasing God 

1. I need to stop trying so hard to conform to the pattern of the world. 

2. I need to stop worrying so much about what others think about me or about trying to please others.  

3. Instead, my efforts should be focused on God.  

4. I need to be transformed into pleasing Him and only caring about what He

Your turn: 

Are you a people pleaser?
Do you worry about what others think about you?
Do you seek to please the Lord?
Do you strive to only care about what He thinks of you?


Father in heaven, my Immanuel, Jehovah Jireh, creator of the heavens and the earth, nothing is too hard for You. Father, I thank You for gently working on me and revealing things to me that I need to work on, in my life. I know that I do not need to conform to the pattern of the world. I do not need to conform to what others think about me or what may or may not please them. Instead, I need to be transformed by the renewing of my mind. I need to focus more on pleasing You. (Romans 12:2). Please help me in my efforts. Thank You for all that You do. In Jesus' name, Amen. 

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Ps. I am including 2 free printables for you. One of them is a 30 Day Bible Reading/Writing Plan  called Who I Am in Christ.  The second one is a coloring page.  

I would like to encourage you to print out the coloring page, color it, and hang it somewhere that you will see it every day. Then, as you work through the Who I Am in Christ Bible Reading Plan , you can pick your favorites, write them down (on post it notes, maybe) and place them around your "I Am" coloring page. 



Tuesday, July 13, 2021

If God is Calling You To It

Life just took a turn.

Sometimes the turns that we face in life, are good turns. However, with this turn, you find yourself struggling and confused. The Lord has good things in store for you. All you have to do is hold on tightly to His hand as He guides your path.

You are standing there, not sure which way to go. Will you try something and fall flat on your face? Will you go in one direction, but the Lord wanted you to go another? What will happen if you mess up? However, if you take a step, what will happen if you do not mess up?

Have you ever felt that God was leading you to do something? Did you fight against His leading? Did you hide and hope that it went away?

Take a wobbly step  

I think back to when my boys were little. I'm talking about before they started to walk. Oh, each one of them learned to hold on to the furniture as they walked around the room. However, over time, they also learned to let go and to take that first uncertain, wobbly step.

I can still picture the look on each of their faces as my husband and I cheered. It was a big deal, after all and one that needed celebrating.

I have to be honest here and admit that when it comes to taking uncertain steps, I hesitate. I find myself fighting and wanting to hide.

Through dreams and hesitations  

Back in 2005, I started having dreams. Yes, I believe in dreams. In these dreams, I was working in a child care center taking care of babies.

Taking care of babies is what I used to do, but I had not worked in ten years. So, to start having these dreams made me panic.

Now, let me preface all of this by saying that at this time, I was volunteering at the elementary school library a couple of days a week. It took a lot for me to decide to pursue this and when I started to get a little bit comfortable with things, I started dreaming about going back to work.

I didn't do anything about the dreams, at first. You know, the old "ignore it and it will go away". But the dreams didn't stop. So, I mentioned to T that I was feeling led to go back to work. And after some praying, I started actually looking into a few local child care centers.

I do believe that I was able to get a job at the third center that I went to.

Now, I am facing other things in my life. Steps that I need to take. However, these steps are not because I have had a dream.

Do I feel overwhelmed? Oh yes, I do. But I am going to do my best to keep pushing through.
I will keep clinging on to the Lord and His strength.

See, even the Israelites hesitated  

Let us look at the Israelites. Joshua was leading them into the promised land. We see in Joshua 18:1-10 that there were 7 tribes that were hesitant about taking the steps necessary to claim their land. So Joshua sets forth the command to send 3 men from each tribe to survey the land. Once they did this, they were to write a description of the area. And then.... Joshua would cast lots, before the Lord, for each section of land.

Joshua 18:1-10 NIV  

The whole assembly of the Israelites gathered at Shiloh and set up the tent of meeting there. The country was brought under their control, but there were still seven Israelite tribes who had not yet received their inheritance. So Joshua said to the Israelites: “How long will you wait before you begin to take possession of the land that the Lord, the God of your ancestors, has given you? Appoint three men from each tribe. I will send them out to make a survey of the land and to write a description of it, according to the inheritance of each. Then they will return to me. You are to divide the land into seven parts. Judah is to remain in its territory on the south and the tribes of Joseph in their territory on the north. After you have written descriptions of the seven parts of the land, bring them here to me and I will cast lots for you in the presence of the Lord our God. The Levites, however, do not get a portion among you, because the priestly service of the Lord is their inheritance. And Gad, Reuben and the half-tribe of Manasseh have already received their inheritance on the east side of the Jordan. Moses the servant of the Lord gave it to them.” As the men started on their way to map out the land, Joshua instructed them, “Go and make a survey of the land and write a description of it. Then return to me, and I will cast lots for you here at Shiloh in the presence of the Lord.” So the men left and went through the land. They wrote its description on a scroll, town by town, in seven parts, and returned to Joshua in the camp at Shiloh. Joshua then cast lots for them in Shiloh in the presence of the Lord, and there he distributed the land to the Israelites according to their tribal divisions.

Whatever you feel the Lord is leading you to do, take the step. Try to take just one step. One step isn't too overwhelming. When you manage that tiny step, try another one. If the Lord is calling you to do this, He is with you every step of the way.

Your turn:  

What steps are you feeling that the Lord is leading you to take?
Do you fight against His leading?
Do you hide and hope that it will all go away?

2 Corinthians 9:8 NIV  

And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.


Father in heaven, Your love is better than life, my lips will always glorify You. I will praise You as long as I live, and in Your name, I lift up my hands (Psalm 63:3-4). I confess that when I feel You leading me a certain way, I often hesitate, just as the 7 Israelite tribes did. I worry that I am going to fail. Please forgive me of this and give me the strength and courage I need to take the step necessary to follow You. I thank You, Father, because I know that You have the power to bless me abundantly. You have the power to make sure that I have everything that I need, at all times, in order that I might abound in every good work (2 Corinthians 9:8). In Jesus' name, Amen.

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Ps. I am attaching a Free Printable for you. It is a 30 Day Bible Reading/Writing Plan called God Will Direct My Steps. It is my prayer that it brings you comfort. 



Thursday, July 1, 2021

Surrender Your Path

Where are you on your path? Have you recently been hurt? Do you feel rejected? Do you feel like the path you are on is hard and scary?

This current path that I am trying to walk, started on January 25th of this year.

Even though I didn't choose this path

I woke up, thinking that it was just like any other day. I went about my normal routine of getting the dogs fed and taken care of, having my breakfast and devotional time with the Lord. Then T announced that he was taking a sick day so he could spend time with me.

We had been talking for some time about replacing the ceiling fan in the living room. T picked out one that is huge. I'm talking like 70 inches. I am someone that is a visual person, which means I need to see something in order to fully understand it. I thought a fan that big would be too big for our space, so we decided to go to Home Depot to look at their ceiling fans.

It was just a normal day. Well, he did ask me if I thought I would ever drive again. I told him that I didn't think so.

I have always (for as far back as I can remember) had anxiety about driving. I have never enjoyed doing it.

He then starts asking me if he gets rid of the Palisade (which was our current vehicle) and looked for something that I would feel more comfortable with, would I be willing to drive? I told him that I wasn't sure.

Even when nothing makes sense

I couldn't understand these questions or why he was wanting to get rid of the Palisade. I mean, we had only had it a short time. And as long as he was there and still willing to drive, it didn't matter to me what car we had.

Everything else went as normal, that day. Taking care of the dogs as needed, cooking and eating (although I cannot remember what I ate that day). We spent time together watching tv and then...

T disappeared into the bedroom. I felt that was odd and I felt hurt. He took off to spend time with me and then disappears without saying a word to me.

I finally shut everything down and started getting ready for bed. As I walked into our bedroom, he said, "we need to talk." My heart sank. I just knew that it was bad news.

Then he proceeds to tell me that he wants out. He feels like he needs to take a break.

I was hurt, angry, scared, numb. I mean, come on, we have done this before. I honestly did not know how to act or what to feel.

As I type this up, it has now been over 5 months since he walked out the door. Yes, I am still reeling from this. There are times that I feel like a piece of trash that has been wadded up and thrown away.

I see God's hand in my life

However, as I look back over my life, I can see how God has been there. Even through my roller coaster of a marriage. We went through a bad patch in 2000, but with God's help, love and guidance, we survived. Because of His grace, we had another 21 years together.

1. Look back over your life. Even in those bad moments that you went through, if you look hard enough, you can see the Lord's hand.

As I look back, I see a motorcycle accident . What a scary, painful time that was, however, the Lord was with us the whole time. I see T's fight with cancer. The Lord brought him through. I see my many, many health issues and scares, but the Lord is still here with me.

2. Spend time giving thanks to the Lord for all that He has done for you.

Thank You Jesus! For I am nothing without You.

3. Praise the Lord for all that He has done and all that He continues to do.

Praise You! You are wonderful, glorious, magnificent, nothing compares to You. Father, I praise You for always being with me, even when I walk the hard paths. I praise You for all that you continue to do. 

You know, since we have "been there and done that" before and the Lord brought us back, I know that anything is possible.

Luke 1:37 CEV 

Nothing is impossible for God!”

I do not know what the next step holds. I am still struggling to manage from one moment to the next. I am struggling to Follow His Path . But I know the Lord is with me.

Your turn: 

What is your path like?
Are you hurting?
Have you lost someone?
Are you struggling in your marriage?

No matter what path you are walking, remember that you are not alone. No matter how far down in your pit you may feel, you are not alone. The Lord is right there with you. He is sitting with you in the muck and the mire. He is reaching out His arms and waiting for you to come to Him with your every struggle. Will you turn to Him?


Father in heaven, nothing is ever impossible for You (Luke 1:37). Here I am Lord, at the lowest point that I can reach. I am sitting in the muck and the mire of my pit of deep despair. I know that you are here with me, even in this dark place. You are reaching for me. Father, I am turning to You. I surrender. I surrender my struggles. I surrender my future. I surrender my life. I surrender my marriage. I surrender my all to You. I trust in You. Thank You for all that You do. In Jesus' name, Amen. 

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