It has now been a month since my husband walked out the door. And it has almost been a week since I found out that he is involved with another woman, already.
So, Leigha, how are you doing?
Can I be honest? I am hurting. I am struggling really hard to just get up out of bed. This morning, after I finished my Prayer Closet (or as I now call it Crying Closet) time, I just sat there.
I felt safe. Honestly, it is now the only place that I do feel safe any more.
I am continuing to pull myself up out of bed every morning and to put one foot in front of the other. Luckily, I still have my dogs. They love me unconditionally and they depend on me to take care of them.
So,
I am doing the best I can.
I am still trying to figure out what my "hidden talent" might be. Nothing springs to mind. So I will continue to pray over this.
What is your "hidden talent"? Have you figured it out?
Is there something that you thought you would like to do, but then time went by, so you buried it? Like for instance, maybe when you were little, you used to dream of being a singer. You used to run around your bedroom with your hairbrush, as a microphone, and belt out your favorite songs. Then, as you grew, life happened, and the dream of singing was hidden away, in a secret place.
Maybe it is time to dig up that "hidden talent" and give it a try.
As you have probably guessed, I am still reading Let's All Be Brave. The part I just finished was about saying "yes".
So what is my "yes"? How have I tried to follow where the Lord is leading me to go?
To carry my cross for Jesus.
My "yes" has been to follow the Lord's guidance in not only praying for my husband, my marriage, but to also pray for the other woman. Just saying that last part, is so hard for me to do.
1 Corinthians 10:24 NIV
No one should seek their own good, but the good of others.
But wait, isn't praying for the other woman a sign that you condone things between her and your husband?
I am glad that you asked that. And my answer is, "no".
I can follow where the Lord leads me by praying for her. I can trust that He has a plan for everything. I can remember that, in the end, He is the One that is in control.
I have to remember that God is the Father of compassion (2 Corinthians1:3). He has compassion on me. He forgave me of my sins when He sent Jesus to die on the cross for me (1 John 4:10). And He will forgive my husband and the other woman as well.
Since God is compassionate, I need to show compassion. I can do that (by showing the love of Jesus) and not condone what they are doing.
For right now, my "yes", my moment of following the Lord, is to pray for this other woman. Even though, it causes me a great deal of pain to do so. I know that the Lord uses everything in my life for good.
Romans 8:28 NIV
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
And continue to persevere.
Another "yes" has been to follow God's leading about continuing with my blog. It is not easy, under normal circumstances, for me to share about my life. However, God wants me to persevere. I want to shut down. Both the blog and in real life, but God has other thoughts.
So, I continue to share my "life's struggles" no matter how hard it is for me to do. Maybe with the Lord's help, somebody will read something that I share and will be comforted and blessed.
Prayer:
Father in heaven, You are my Jehovah Jireh. Nothing is too hard for You (Jeremiah 32:17). I thank You, Father, for blessing me with this day. I thank You for my struggles; the thorns that are in my side. I am thankful for my weaknesses because I know that when I am weak, because of You, I am strong ( 2 Corinthians 12:7-10). Father, I humble myself now as I pray for the other woman. I will not cease to give thanks for her or to remember her in my prayers (Ephesians 1:16). I lift this person into Your loving hands and ask that You will bring healing to her hurting heart. May she be blessed with a special touch from You. May You, the Lord of Peace, give her peace at all times in every way. May You be with her (2 Thessalonians 3:16). Please increase my strength. Help me to remember that in all things, You work for the good of those who love You (Romans 8:28). I pray that Your will be done. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Your Turn:
What is your "hidden talent?
Have you figured it out, yet?
Maybe it is time to dig it up and give it a try.
What is your "yes"?
How are you trying to follow where the Lord is guiding you?
If He said, "Take up your cross and follow me," would you say, "yes"?
Check out these posts:
Leigha
No comments:
Post a Comment