Friday, February 26, 2021

Are You Following Jesus?

It has now been a month since my husband walked out the door. And it has almost been a week since I found out that he is involved with another woman, already.



So, Leigha, how are you doing?









Can I be honest? I am hurting. I am struggling really hard to just get up out of bed. This morning, after I finished my Prayer Closet (or as I now call it Crying Closet) time, I just sat there.
 


I felt safe. Honestly, it is now the only place that I do feel safe any more.



I am continuing to pull myself up out of bed every morning and to put one foot in front of the other. Luckily, I still have my dogs. They love me unconditionally and they depend on me to take care of them.



So,


I am doing the best I can. 




I am still trying to figure out what my "hidden talent" might be. Nothing springs to mind. So I will continue to pray over this.



What is your "hidden talent"? Have you figured it out?



Is there something that you thought you would like to do, but then time went by, so you buried it? Like for instance, maybe when you were little, you used to dream of being a singer. You used to run around your bedroom with your hairbrush, as a microphone, and belt out your favorite songs. Then, as you grew, life happened, and the dream of singing was hidden away, in a secret place.



Maybe it is time to dig up that "hidden talent" and give it a try.



As you have probably guessed, I am still reading Let's All Be Brave. The part I just finished was about saying "yes".



So what is my "yes"? How have I tried to follow where the Lord is leading me to go?



To carry my cross for Jesus.




My "yes" has been to follow the Lord's guidance in not only praying for my husband, my marriage, but to also pray for the other woman. Just saying that last part, is so hard for me to do.



1 Corinthians 10:24 NIV



No one should seek their own good, but the good of others.




But wait, isn't praying for the other woman a sign that you condone things between her and your husband?






 


I am glad that you asked that. And my answer is, "no".
 


I can follow where the Lord leads me by praying for her. I can trust that He has a plan for everything. I can remember that, in the end, He is the One that is in control.
 


I have to remember that God is the Father of compassion (2 Corinthians1:3). He has compassion on me. He forgave me of my sins when He sent Jesus to die on the cross for me (1 John 4:10). And He will forgive my husband and the other woman as well.



Since God is compassionate, I need to show compassion. I can do that (by showing the love of Jesus) and not condone what they are doing.



For right now, my "yes", my moment of following the Lord, is to pray for this other woman. Even though, it causes me a great deal of pain to do so. I know that the Lord uses everything in my life for good.



Romans 8:28 NIV 



And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.




And continue to persevere. 




Another "yes" has been to follow God's leading about continuing with my blog. It is not easy, under normal circumstances, for me to share about my life. However, God wants me to persevere. I want to shut down. Both the blog and in real life, but God has other thoughts.



So, I continue to share my "life's struggles" no matter how hard it is for me to do. Maybe with the Lord's help, somebody will read something that I share and will be comforted and blessed.



Prayer: 



Father in heaven, You are my Jehovah Jireh. Nothing is too hard for You (Jeremiah 32:17). I thank You, Father, for blessing me with this day. I thank You for my struggles; the thorns that are in my side. I am thankful for my weaknesses because I know that when I am weak, because of You, I am strong ( 2 Corinthians 12:7-10). Father, I humble myself now as I pray for the other woman. I will not cease to give thanks for her or to remember her in my prayers (Ephesians 1:16). I lift this person into Your loving hands and ask that You will bring healing to her hurting heart. May she be blessed with a special touch from You. May You, the Lord of Peace, give her peace at all times in every way. May You be with her (2 Thessalonians 3:16). Please increase my strength. Help me to remember that in all things, You work for the good of those who love You (Romans 8:28). I pray that Your will be done. In Jesus' name, Amen.



Your Turn:



What is your "hidden talent?
Have you figured it out, yet?
Maybe it is time to dig it up and give it a try.
What is your "yes"?
How are you trying to follow where the Lord is guiding you?
If He said, "Take up your cross and follow me," would you say, "yes"?



Check out these posts: 












Blessings, 





Leigha


Tuesday, February 23, 2021

Pray For Your Enemies

Have you ever had the breath knocked out of you?



That is how I felt. I stood there listening to my husband tell me that he had just spent the entire week in Franklin. As he said it, a friend of his had fallen and broken a hip, so he had been staying with them to help out.









At first, my response was to tell him that it was nice of him to do this. When deep inside, I was hurting because he was not there for me, when I fell.



Follow God's Leading 




Then, all of a sudden, I felt led to ask him who this "friend" was. He told me that I wouldn't like it because it is a female. Somehow it finally came out that he has been involved with her. So I asked him how long this has been going on and he said for a few weeks.



I told him that I am against him seeing someone else. I am also against divorce.
 


A lot of things were said, but what I remember is telling him that I know the Lord has a purpose for all of this. I told him that I will be praying hard for him that the Lord will open his eyes to see what the enemy has been keeping him from seeing.



Now here I am. There are so many thoughts going around my head.




Even When It Hurts




During my sleepless night, as I prayed, it was revealed to me that I need to pray for my enemy. Okay, so here, you need to picture me trying to question God to make sure I was hearing Him right.



Luke 6:28 NLT  



Bless those who curse you. Pray for those who hurt you.



I mean pray for this woman?! Seriously?



Yes.



After I accepted my call to pray for her, I felt a tiny bit of peace. Then, you know what? I felt led to share some food with her.



So after I finished cooking our meal, I put some in a container for her. I will then pray over the food asking for blessing and for healing in her life.



Is it easy for me to think about praying for this woman? Um, no. Is it easy to take away from our food and give it to her? Definitely not. But once I accepted what the Lord was telling me to do, I had some peace.



And then Jacob brings up the question.... do you know what you are going to do?









He wants me to plan ahead. I mean, in all honesty, every time T comes over, something else is different or has changed. Somehow or another he ends up turning my world upside down again.



Trust in the Lord's Timing




So, in response to Jacob's question I told him that I have to leave things in the Lord's hands. If I think about things too much, I start having panic attacks and that will not do me any good.



If T does pursue a "d" word (and I know that is a possibility), I am left without a job, without a source of income, no medical insurance, no way to pay for doctors, no way to pay for my prescriptions.



So what am I going to do? In the planning ahead part, I have no idea and that scares me. However, for right now, I am going to put my trust in the Lord.
 


Proverbs 25:21 NIV 



If your enemy is hungry, give him food to eat; if he is thirsty, give him water to drink.



Prayer: 



Father in heaven, You are mighty. You are powerful. You are majestic. Nothing is too hard for You (Jeremiah 32:17). I humble myself before You, right now Father, and I ask that You will be with this person. I do not know her name. But since she is a part of my husband's life, she is now a part of my life as well. I lift her into Your hands. Please open her eyes, Father. Let Your light shine through and reveal those things that have been kept in the darkness. Father, I am sharing my food with her, may it bless her and help her to regain some strength. Please cause her to have a speedy recovery time. She needs Your healing touch on her life. Thank You for being with me through all of this. I pray that Your will be done. In Jesus' name, Amen. 



Your Turn: 


When someone has hurt you, have you felt led to pray for that person?
Have you ever felt led to share compassion with that person?
I would like to encourage you to spend some time praying over this to see what God speaks to your heart.



Check out these posts: 











Blessings,






Leigha 








Ps. I have put together A Prayer For Your Enemy freebie for you. I hope that praying through this prayer brings you comfort. 







 

Thursday, February 18, 2021

Brave in the Lord



I fell the other day.



Yup. I was taking our tiny 17 year old dog out to do her business and the deck was icy. I slipped and fell.



I am covered with bruises and I hurt everywhere, but you know what? 



I am managing. 




I am still reading through Let's All Be Brave. The part I just read was about finding "your people". Those people who encourage you to find your brave. Those people who encourage you to do that brave thing even when all you want to do is hide or run the other way.









Okay, this makes me take a step back as I think, who are "my people"? Who do I have in my corner cheering me on? Who do I have to console me when/if I try something and it goes wrong?



I used to think T was one of my people. Oh, I am sure that to an extent, he still is, but he has removed himself. I know that I can also count on my boys (and my daughter-in-law) to cheer me on.



However, what is my brave thing? 




Another thing that I read was about talents. Hidden talents to be exact. She challenges us to uncover our hidden talents and name them or say them out loud.



What hidden talents do I have that I need to uncover?



Years ago, it used to be writing for the Lord. I felt lead in the direction to start blogging for Him. So off and on, for three years, that is what I have been trying to do.



Earlier this year, I was thinking about giving up on my blogging. Now, however, I am feeling lead, very strongly to continue on in this venture. So here I am. <--- picture me taking a bow right now because I am picturing you clapping for my effort :).



All of this really brings things to light for me. I really need to find more people. I just keep thinking about the verses from Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 :



Ecclesiastes 4:9-12 NIV 



Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up. Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.



Pity the one who falls and has no one to help them up. I used to count on T to help me up.



I need more people. And I need to spend time thinking and praying to see if I have any talents that I have hidden away. Any dreams that I buried, long ago.









Your Turn: 



Spend some time thinking and see if you can name "your people".
Who will encourage you to be brave?
Who will console you if you try something and it goes wrong?
What are your hidden talents?
What dreams have you buried?



2 Corinthians 1:3-4 NIV 



Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.


 

Prayer: 




Father in heaven, Your way is perfect. Your word is flawless (Psalm 18:30). You are my Jehovah Jireh. Nothing is too hard for you. Father, I thank you right now for reaching down and helping me up when I fall. Yes, I am alone, but with You by my side, I know I can endure. Father, please help me to always be joyful in hope, patient during my struggles, and always faithful in my prayers (Romans 12:12). Please help me to remember exactly how much compassion and comfort that You are giving to me as I face my troubles. Father, I also ask that You will help me to take the comfort You are giving to me and give it to others who are hurting (2 Corinthians 1:3-4). I praise Your Holy name. Your will be done. In Jesus' name, Amen. 




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Blessings, 




Leigha 













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Thursday, February 11, 2021

Do Not Grow Weary

I am reading Let's All Be Brave. Have you read it? It is by Annie F. Downs, in case you are interested.



She challenges us to ask the Lord how our life looks when we live our lives courageously for Him today. Well, I am not a brave person. During scary situations, I prefer to know that I have safety and security. When I feel overwhelmed by challenges that I am faced with (that are not of my own making), I want to stay in bed, with the covers pulled up over my head until the challenge has passed.


I am not a brave person. 




Below is part of a letter that I typed up for T. So, today, my courageous act has been to follow the Lord in typing up the letter and in giving it to T. And, another courageous act is sharing it (even in part) here with you.



From my letter:



"You keep asking me if I have any questions. Or you tell me to talk to you.



Well, in my mind, thoughts are bouncing all over the place. It takes an effort to be able to reign them in.



I will say that your decision to leave caught me off guard. My heart has been ripped into pieces, again. And I didn't think that was possible.
 


My thoughts and questions are not exactly along the logical side of things. I am not the type to look at things and logically think through them. My emotions get in the way.



I guess if I were going to ask questions, they would be:



Why?



What happened?



What did I do wrong?



Is there someone else?



Why can I not wake up from this nightmare?



Have you made a definite decision and you just haven't told me?



Do you see any hope for our marriage?



What the heck do I do now?"



The Lord has a plan.



I am completely overwhelmed by things, right now. I do not know where the Lord is taking me. I do not know where the Lord is taking T. I do not know where the Lord is taking our marriage.
 


What I do know is that I can still turn to the Lord. I can still trust that even though things seem out of control, He has a plan for all of this.








I will not grow weary in doing good for at the proper time, I will reap a harvest, if I do not give up (Galatians 6:9). Can I get an Amen?



I will keep trudging through. I will keep my trust in the Lord. Things may be overwhelming and I know full well that things may not turn out as I hope, but I will still trust in the Lord. With His help, I will be able to reap a harvest as long as I do not grow weary and give up.



Update:



I was brave. I prayed over the letter that I felt the Lord lead me to type up and to give to T. I also prayed that His will be done. Then I gave him the letter.



He picked out the "Why?" from my list of questions and proceeded to blame me for things. He also said that we need to go forward as though things are officially over. However, all he plans to do is file for separation.
 


My heart is crushed, right now. I know the Lord is there. He is carrying me through all of this. He has a plan, I just have to trust Him and His timing.



As I have been doing some reading, I came across this verse:



Malachi 2:16 NIV 


“The man who hates and divorces his wife,” says the Lord , the God of Israel, “does violence to the one he should protect,” says the Lord Almighty. So be on your guard, and do not be unfaithful.

 

And here it is from the NLT translation:



Malachi 2:16 NLT 


“For I hate divorce!” says the Lord , the God of Israel. “To divorce your wife is to overwhelm her with cruelty, ” says the Lord of Heaven’s Armies. “So guard your heart; do not be unfaithful to your wife.”

 

When I read this verse, it brought me comfort. Here again God is telling me that while He hates divorce and does not want to see any harm come to me, He is the One that is in control. He is reminding me that He's got this.



Prayer:



Father in heaven, my Jehovah Jireh, You are mighty, powerful, and majestic. You created the heavens and the earth. Nothing is too hard for You. Father, I will not grow weary in doing good for I know that at the proper time, I will reap a harvest, if I do not give up (Galatians 6:9). I know that You hate divorce and do not wish to see me suffer (Malachi 2:16) and I know that You have a plan in everything that I am going through. You are in control. I trust in You, Father, to be my strength and to carry me through this. I pray that Your will be done. In Jesus' name, Amen.



The Lord has been carrying me, a lot, lately. So, I decided to look up verses about Him carrying us. It is my hope that they bring you comfort as you lean in to His strength. 






Check out these posts: 









Blessings, 




Leigha 






Thursday, February 4, 2021

Take Everything to the Lord

Last Monday (January 25th), my husband left me.



He is staying with his parents.



I did not live up to his expectations.



Can I be honest, I am so scared.    




I do not work. I do not have my own money. What am I supposed to do, now?



Cry and then take everything to the Lord.



I have been reading books for several months, now, about praying for your husband. Covering him from head to toe in prayers, another one is a 40 day praying Scriptures over your husband book and another one is a 40 day praying for your marriage challenge. As I said, I have been reading through these books and covering him and our marriage in prayers for several months.



I know, full well, that we are under attack. I have been focusing a lot of time in this area and the enemy is not happy.
 


Well, guess what?



I am going to keep on praying. 




I have had a lot of mornings that I could not sleep. I wake up to take my first dose of medication and just cannot go back to sleep. I have so many things going on in my mind. So.... I get up and go into my prayer closet to cry and pray.



On another note, I have decided that I am going to observe the season of Lent this year (and no, I am not Catholic). With my word of the year being "pray", I have felt lead to fast and now I feel lead to take part in Lent.








So Leigha, what did you give up for Lent?
 


Well, it wasn't something that I personally gave up.
 


My husband left.
 


So for the 40+/- days of Lent, I will be spending the time seeking God and His guidance for my life, and for my marriage. I will be focusing on praying over my marriage, and praying through 40+ blessings. And I will be trying really hard to remember that God is in control.



May this verse serve to be a reminder to you to keep on praying, no matter what:



Mark 11:24 NIV 



Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.



Prayer: 



Father in heaven, I praise Your name. Please forgive me of the many ways that I fail You, every day and help me in my efforts to be able to forgive those who have hurt me. Thank You for always being with me, no matter what storms come against me. Father, I know that whatever I ask for in prayer, if I believe that I have received it, then it will be mine (Mark 11:24). I am claiming this promise, right now, over my life, over my family. Thank You. I ask all of this according to Your will. In Jesus' name, Amen.



Ps. 


I just wanted to mention that today, February 4th, is my blog's 3 year Blogiversary!



Blessings, 




Leigha

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