Thursday, March 28, 2019

To The One Who Feels Like Trash

Have there been moments in your life that have made you feel unimportant, unwanted, like a piece of trash? You do matter. This is the last post of the series looking into my past.









I see you. Yes, I know that there have been times in your past that you have felt like trash being tossed out.




The one time that I am thinking of, right now, is the time when you stepped in to help your sister. Sadly enough, she had been tossed out as well and being the big sister, you wanted to help.



Show Her Love 




Oh, I can just imagine the thoughts running through your mind as you stepped in. You wanted to wrap your arms around your sister and show her love. The kind of love that only comes from knowing Jesus.




However, to step in, as you did, cost you as well. Taking that step to reach out to your sister and show her love, caused a rift. Your dad got so mad at you.




He called you, as soon as he found out. He spewed out every hurtful thing that he could think of to say to you. What did you do? You kept reminding him that your sister was still part of the family and that you were not going to turn your back on her. After he yelled a little more, you reminded him to watch his blood pressure to which he got very upset. He told you that he never wanted to see you or talk to you again. He then hung up on you.




I know that had to be so hard on you. I am sure that it hurt you a lot.




This was not the first time that your dad had cut you from the family, but it would be the last.



Pick Up The Pieces





I know that it took you a long time to pick up the pieces after that. You struggled, for quite some time with depression. You spent a lot of time crying, feeling like you just do not matter.









What hurt the most was thinking about how everything just went on as normal. Your dad had tossed you aside, but nothing else changed. Seeing pictures of your mom would start the waterworks without fail. You would sit there wondering, "Doesn't she miss me at all?" Yet, everything looks normal.




Honestly, I think it was an illusion. If you observed close enough, you could see things for what that really were. Your mom only said things that she heard your dad say. It was like if by repeating him word by word, it must be okay because he had said it to her.




Then, the news came that your mom was sick. Cancer. You were allowed to go visit with her.




When she passed, you had a peace that could have only come from Jesus.




Forgiveness. It isn't an easy thing to do, is it? However, with the Lord's strength all things are possible.




You clung to the Lord, who helped you through that time. He also helped you to be able to forgive your dad. And you have peace.



Ephesians 4:31-32 NIV 



Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.








Let's Pray: 



Dear Father, 



Please help me to get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Father, please forgive me for the times that I hold on to all of those hurts instead of letting them go. I pray that you will help me to be kind and compassionate to others, forgiving them, just as in Christ you have forgiven me. In Jesus' name, Amen.












To The One Who Feels Unwanted


A Letter To Myself Age 19


A Letter To Myself Age 10


A Letter To Myself As A Baby












Have there been moments in your life that have made you feel unimportant, unwanted, like a piece of trash?
You do matter.
How can I pray for you today?
If you will allow it, I will be happy to help carry your load.


























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