Monday, December 31, 2018

Farewell 2018

It is that time of year again. Time to reflect back over all of the things that the year has held.

The ups.

The downs.

The good.

The bad.


I started off 2018 with Peace and within a couple of months, had added Trust. So my verse for the year has been Isaiah 26:3 You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.

As I have gone throughout the year, I have focused more on trusting the Lord. The more that I have trusted Him, the more peace I have felt.

In February, I felt His leading me to start blogging again. That was a huge step for me. I have blogged off and on, in the past. Nobody cared. This time I am trusting the Lord to not only guide my words, but also to use them how He deems is necessary.

I also created a group, over the summer. I felt lead to create this group for women who feel like they struggle all alone. I took the step. However, the group did not last.

I know the group was not meant to be. The Lord has given me peace about it and has allowed me to move on.

Because of that group, I have met some wonderful women and feel truly blessed to call them friends.

I am still struggling every day. I deal with a lot of depression and anxiety. My SAI is still there. Fibromyalgia pain is still there. But I keep trudging through.

I have just recently had an MRI of my pituitary gland/tumor. As my endo was showing me the latest results, it appears that the stalk has gotten a bit bigger. Surgery is very likely in my future.

I talked to her about referring me to a rheumatologist about my fibromyalgia. She told me that Vanderbilt rheumatologists do not treat fibromyalgia, but she would still "try" to refer me to someone. She said that PCP doctors are usually the ones that treat it, but mine told me straight up that he doesn't. So, in other words, sorry, Leigha, but you are on your own with this.

I mentioned surgery on my pituitary tumor, I have to weigh all of the pros and cons. Right now, there are not a lot of pros. Well, I would be rid of the tumor. No promises on rather or not it would help my headaches. Oh and a con, I would then have diabetes insepidis (?).

I will continue to trust in the Lord where all of this is concerned.


My word for 2019 is Renew.

My verse is:

Isaiah 40:31 NIV 

but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

I told Tim about my verse. When I got to the walk and not faint part, he mentioned that I am clinging on to God in a literal sense with this one.

What he is referring to is the fact that I get dizzy when I stand up. No, it is not every time that I stand up, but it does make things challenging for me. When we are out, I have to find the closest seat to the door and sit down until my balance returns.

So yes, I am trusting that the Lord will renew my strength this coming year. Trusting that He will help me not to grow weary and to be able to walk without fainting. I have no idea what He holds in store for me this coming year, but my hope is in Him. He will help me rest when needed, renew my strength and see me through whatever is to come.


Dear Father,  thank You for being with me through this past year.  All of the ups, the downs, the good days and the bad, I can see how You were there with me each step of the way. Father, I lift up the year of 2019 and place it into Your hands. I have no idea what is coming this year, but You do. You are in control. Please help me to remember that You have everything taken care of so that I need not worry or be afraid. Help me rest as I place my hope; my trust in You and to know that You will renew my strength so I will be able to walk and not faint. Thank You for all that You do. In Jesus' name, Amen. 

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It is that time of year again.
Time to reflect back over all of the things that the year has held.
How can I pray for you today?
If you will allow it, I will be happy to help carry your load.

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